:: the killer in me is the killer in you ::

and the fairy tale will read...

"And she loved him until she was weak in the knees"
it is too bad he did not love her back.

you will realize that you loved me at the end of the story.
and you will want to tell the whole world then.
but by that time, it will be too late.


wont give in.

i know...






ill wait forever.

... i love you
and your pain is gone now.
you are with Grandma. <3
and happy.
i will see you again someday.
and until then, i will miss you.
<3


i'll never forget...
"Im so proud of you for everything you've accomplished Emily. I love you dear and i will always be with you. "


i love you...

sometimes late at night
when i cannot sleep
i stop and think in my head
of all the ways life could
have gone a different direction
how so many things
could
be changed and dismembered
i wonder if i would be happy
with them
i wonder if i woule be sad
i wish there was a way to see
what kind of path you chould
have chosen instead of
the one you did
i wonder what its like to be
completely happy with life
you know no one ever is
maybe
someday
i will feel totally at ease
with life
maybe not
i wonder if there could be
a small thing i would change
that would mangle with
the universe
like destroying some kind of
animal
and it would destroy
existance
maybe its already happening
oh well
maybe we werent ment to know
maybe...